The small voice inside her grew louder. Because the woman could not hear it yet, it spoke through her body as illness. This illness tied her tummy in knots. Knots made up of the longing and frustration to be heard. The woman felt the voice every day. It was the Continue Reading
the gift of a dream
The girl dreamt of the moon last night. Its huge, glittering beauty beaming golden light down on her small face, her eyes looking up in loving amazement at its splendour, its size in the night. The moon filled the sky, it was a Super Moon, a gift to all the Continue Reading
Why do you fight ?
I fight to stay alive. I fight for the beautiful moment called life. I fight when I do not even know I am fighting, it is such a part of me.I fight to be me, to be free, to be still, real, honest. As a child it is all I Continue Reading
Resilience
Part of the definition of resilience in the dictionary is ‘to be able to spring back into shape after being stretched or compressed’, from the Latin, to leap back. Well I’m trying my best to leap back but I keep falling off my perch, ending up again on the bottom Continue Reading
what depression teaches me
Reality. My depression shows me reality. It still hurts to breathe some days. It hurts to move, to think, to do. Deep within me is sadness that aches and breaks in tears that create yellow light inside me when they fall endlessly. This is love at the end of pain. Continue Reading
Feeling fragile
Depression has crept up on me. It was coming on for a while, but I missed the signs this time. Life has thrown other shit at me recently, so I just kept going. At the end of October I was ambushed by it. I knew these emotions were there. They Continue Reading
the truth will not forget you
The Psychologist John Bowlby stated that children cannot know what they cannot communicate to a parent Having lived this in an abusive childhood I can attest to his words. The odds of claiming the experience of your truth and then voicing it, are against you. For anyone who has grown Continue Reading
who do they see ?
Who do the police see when they interview survivors of child abuse and choose to not believe them? I know this has happened to so many of you, it’s a devastating fact. A common fact. It’s also happened to me. I wasn’t believed. I reported my child abuse to the Continue Reading
rabbit love
Rabbit heart I know you. Sweet soul , wise and still you give so much with your gentle being. Here on the ground we are one. Time has no meaning , there is only now. I was prey once too. I know the earth and what she holds for us, Continue Reading
Storm
I belong to the storm cradled within purple bruised clouds blowing me out across the sky. I am the storm whirring about like the wild wind, above roof tops diving down to the pavements struggling to fly, chaos. A black crow whose wings are pushing out like a jet plane, Continue Reading