Intensely complicated and complex through circumstances. Wild and anti social designed from rage, born of powerlessness. Too many thoughts. A dreamer and an addict created in the suffering of abandonment. Struggles at night and struggles in the day. Needs to isolate to feel close to Nature then can become like an animal sharing belonging and oneness with the world. Can feel self hatred staring in the mirror. Boring shame! Has to work on this for life. Claims her fractured self of small child parts as her own miracle of the life force. Some love, some hurt, some ache and some dance. Buys too much stuff to bring presents to these children, over compensating for the complete lack of love there was. Each child was a fighter and a rebel against the abuse. So playful, loves to dance, loves to love and sing. Shows complete resistance to the abuse with the mind. Feels complete resistance. Is complete resistance because still breathing, still feeling. Gets exhausted with the burden she was given when it resurfaces. The physical and emotional aches and pains that remain. Looks to the sky and the trees for her freedom and finds it in the clear beautiful space there. No longer a prisoner, no longer a dumping ground for all their shit. Hears the inner call of her alarm system that moves the sounds within. Pays attention to all the fractures that rise. Faced the fear of death so became like the earth and met herself and safety there. Small and fragile, broken but still breathing. In this moment found oneness. Has a garden of joy and wonder as an internal world, where all the pain and horror has been discovered and turned over to the birds and dragonflies. Has a very high pain threshold. Is a warrior, had to be but this is often disguised on the inside. Resilient and extremely resourceful through necessity. Often given labels. Misunderstood. Has to undertake an epic journey to return to the self via the truth. Can face pain and sorrow and continues to laugh every day, especially at herself . Loves being alive reversing the trend that was set in childhood. Remarkable, resilient, compassionate, unseen SURVIVORS.